Dexiang

Monday, November 30, 2009

不值得

Listen to this song lately, and fell in love with this song again !

really felt left out-in school, do not know how long I can take it...
Today at school, met for project and I stood like worst than a stone that even when throw onto floor the stone also make some noise. My group change their choice of hotel for project work also do not want to let me know and still ask me just to read something about the hotel before come for the meeting. I got go and read before the meeting and is a totally wrong hotel, felt so left out again. I know is my fault missing some tutorial but cant I just participate and not be a free rider?
I know i am a rider but not a free rider, cause i still pay my own oil.
Since start of year 2, i had tell my parents i thinking of droping out of school and study something else but my parents never understand and never supported me. They should had know their son is mature enough to make decision but I know they do not had much time for me to change course or even waste time seeking for other skills. They are old and need to be financial stable as soon as posible. Now i am at year 3, everything seems too late. I really hope coming few weeks will just be better cause I just need the CERT!

Sunday, November 29, 2009

Can I?

Can someone tell me or even show me you love me? I am stupid and I do not know how to guess the chances I may have if I confessed my love to someone. I am tired and I do not wish to enter the army life without experiencing love. Had been single for too long and thinking too much lately. I know I am nothing and have nothing so I really do not expect anything. But can I just dream and being navie over here," like blogging out here may get a chance out there?, yes I am navie."I do not want a girlfriend, I want a soul mate to accompany me to the end of life.

Can I?

As usual, being emo is what I had been used to out here...