really felt left out-in school, do not know how long I can take it...
Today at school, met for project and I stood like worst than a stone that even when throw onto floor the stone also make some noise. My group change their choice of hotel for project work also do not want to let me know and still ask me just to read something about the hotel before come for the meeting. I got go and read before the meeting and is a totally wrong hotel, felt so left out again. I know is my fault missing some tutorial but cant I just participate and not be a free rider?
I know i am a rider but not a free rider, cause i still pay my own oil.
Since start of year 2, i had tell my parents i thinking of droping out of school and study something else but my parents never understand and never supported me. They should had know their son is mature enough to make decision but I know they do not had much time for me to change course or even waste time seeking for other skills. They are old and need to be financial stable as soon as posible. Now i am at year 3, everything seems too late. I really hope coming few weeks will just be better cause I just need the CERT!
